Flashing Lights

My chosen task for this month was to get rid of negativity. It's like once I put that out there, the universe conspired to ensure that happens even when I'm not consciously trying. Actually, let me correct that last statement - the universe is putting 'challenges' and little tests in my path to see which fork in the road I'm going to choose.
I stumbled on a major one. Have you ever walked down a mental road where there are warning signs flashing all over the place and still, you put one foot in front of the other and keep on? You know each footstep is leading you further and further into a situation that you won't be able to reverse out of so easily, and yet on you go? Human nature, it blows the mind. On I walked...
Instead of beating myself up and feeling guilty, I'm cutting myself some slack. I think these tests are in place not for you to choose the 'right' thing, but to discover yourself a little further, a little deeper. So I'm looking at that stumble more as an opportunity to see what I want, and to take my time with it. The only person I owe anything to right now is me. And take note, I avoided the word 'mistake'. I don't even think I believe in mistakes anymore.
I will say though, that I've fallen into old behaviour patterns that I know are not good for me. They didn't work the first few times round so why I'm doing it again is beyond me. But I have a weekend away coming up. Sometimes you really do need to step out of things physically. Especially when you live in a city like New York. It can wear you down and sometimes you don't have the clarity to see things clearly. Even more so when you're blinded by the glare of those flashing lights.
Here's to the weekend!