Day 5!

I was in the city today.
It was torture.
Walking around any of Manhattan's food districts is not recommended while you are on a fast. I was working during the day which was fine. Drank all of my juice by 5pm. I guess not drinking enough the day before had it's consequences. I'm ok in the daytime. I remain busy and I don't think about food. It's the evenings which get me. And I can't be at home for them.
Being at home, we tend to distract ourselves by doing something like watching a movie. That's all good and well, but my natural, habitual, instinct is to eat something when I do that. It's an urge that I find almost impossible to dissipate. Which is why I made sure that I would be busy each and every night that I was fasting. This is probably the complete opposite approach to most people who would more likely choose to rest. But my day ended early today. And I found myself on the streets of Manhattan walking past restaurants and wanting nothing more than to go home, pop a dvd on, and EAT SOMETHING!! So...I decided to reward myself on (almost) 5 days done. I bought a whole bunch of girlie supplies and chose to spoil myself.
For the first time in years I decided to have a soak in the tub. Armed with epsom salts (to drag out even more impurities), lavender oil and candles, I made myself the most heavenly bath ever. I was so relaxed and felt amazing. It gave me time to just be in the moment with nothing else to distract me. It was bliss. I crawled into bed afterwards feeling so wonderfully relaxed. And it got me through the night. In the loveliest, loveliest way! :)