Day 4! Decision And Discipline

Day 4 has been the easiest day so far. I wasn't hungry at all. I paced myself on my juice and I was good. In fact, I didn't even drink all of my juice.
I'm surprised with myself this time round. It was torture the last two times I did/tried the master cleanse. I put it down to mental strength. I don't have a huge appetite and I don't eat a lot (relatively!). I'm more of a grazer. Shame I don't graze on much green stuff! I tend to chew down on chocolate, cake and french fries when I want a treat. And I 'treat' myself way too often!
So my eating habits are definitely more psychological and emotional. So the tricky part for me was never going to be the physical ordeal, it was the mental one. Every day on this fast, the good, the bad and even the great, I am still thinking about food. A lot. Cravings are supposed to disappear on this fast. I thought that was a load of rubbish, but I know realise that mine don't go anywhere because mine are a mental thing.
Which makes me see how much I've grown in the last few years since I last attempted this. A combination of life's trials and tribulations along with a lot of reading (Eckhart Tolle being the most prominent), my mind is a tool I can use. I'm no longer a slave to it. I can be in the moment now. I can focus on the task at hand. And this gives me the knowledge that I needed oh so much lately - that I have the discipline to make a decision and follow through with it. It may not sound like much, but it is. We use the words decision and decide so loosely. We say we have decided to do something - work out 3 times a week, or we decide to eat healthily from now on. But those 'decisions' fall apart within a week or two. The reason is because we didn't commit to the word we were using.

decision: a conclusion or resolution reached after consideration

A conclusion. The final word. I made the decision to go on this fast after a lot of deliberating and procrastinating. I knew that once I began, that was it. I knew I would see it through, health-willing. There was no get out clause for me. There was no notion of it being too hard. I decided to take each moment of weakness as it came and ride it out. This too shall pass. And it did. And they do.
I've talked about decisions before. Now I see I have the discipline to make more.